I am so unusually happy today, it is delighting! :) Best feeling I’ve had in ages!

Nothing is weirder than tripping with two of your three brothers and the neighbour. I just gave all my drugs away, oh hell, I am too kind.

Spent 4 hours in the city, 2 hours sitting in an office to set up a savings account, 2 hours waiting for a bus. When I came home I realized that my mother took the keys with her. So I waited from 1pm til 6pm for her coming back. In the fucking shining sun. Ahhhh -_-

Hopefully it will be a nice time. Please.

I bet nobody wants to know this but I’ve got a bathroom book that I only read when I’m in the bathroom. Right now it’s Gut gegen Nordwind from Daniel Glattauer & it is just so good! Very entertaining!

I want to be crazy in love again. I miss the opportunity to be happy and sad at the same time. And I have to get rid of my Tom Hiddleston obsession, it drives me nuts.

Right now my life has no meaning at all. I feel like fear holds my throat and every single idea is not ready to become reality. Not even the words work anymore.

I’ve got to a point where it ultimately hurts being reminded that I am alone.

Sometimes I fear that it will never change. Maybe if I knew that in the future I will be able to love someone desperately again … I would enjoy being free. But at the moment unusual, leading-nowhere crushes break my heart. Ugh.

There’s no champagne left so I’ll take my pills and eat raspberrys and watch Marie Antoinette. Yes.